I was lied to about successful, educated women “having it all,” including marriage and children. I was lied to about the impact of the contraceptive mentality
on women, men, and their relationship.
Brought up Catholic, sex was meant for marriage. But in my late teens I was persuaded to embark on intimate caressing by my boyfriend. I eventually
broke up with him. But my confused feelings were left in my body and mind, a powerful bodily desire… for motherhood? The sexual revolution does
not tell women about it.
I met my husband a few years later. We got married in the Catholic Church, but we received no help to embark on our marital relationship in chastity, no
warning of the dangers of contraception or on work and motherhood. It took a few years for us to decide to have our first child. Deciding on full-time
motherhood, after a time of struggle with work and my inner pain of wanting to be with my baby, dropped me off somewhere incomprehensible: I had been
educated to be liberated and independent, and I found myself wanting to be with my baby but a bored housewife with no exposure to my career or mental
stimulation and dependent on my husband. I felt tricked. But what was the solution?
When I had a second baby I felt the same emotions: still bored but still happy to be with them. Along all those years I said that “society” had tricked
me, while at the back of my mind was the question: Why is John Paul II opposed to contraception? I think this internal questioning eventually allowed
the coin to drop in me.
I had been separated from the Church, and through circumstances I ended up on a retreat. There I experienced the great love by God, who in a mysterious
loving way, opened my eyes to my marriage and our fertility. I resolved on stopping contraception. The connection between what I now call the Sexual
Revolutionary ideology and the problems I faced in my life happened by the grace of God in this retreat.
I was determined to overcome the ill effects of what I now call the Sexual Revolution. So I told my husband. It then became clear that we were experiencing
life in different ways, which had been hidden all those years of contracepting. The difficulties in our relationship were hidden. Contraception was
a barrier for our inner depths. When a few years later he had a conversion, a better understanding started growing between us and about our dealings
with our children. A few years later we had our third child. It was interesting how not contracepting had changed our attitude to parenthood, and the
dealing with this child was much easier between us.
All those years on and now we are “dating” again. Now it is easier, as God seems to step in. We are now where we could have been all those years if we
had not been left in the grip of the sexual revolution.
I feel hurt that no one told us about the dangers of the contraceptive mentality. I feel hurt that we did not know what a woman experiences in motherhood
and how important it is for the children to be well looked after. I feel graced that we have seen it.
The positive change that I am most passionate about is to educate men and women, starting young, about relationships and sexuality and about the dangerous
lies of the contraceptive mentality. What I ardently desire is for our children not to be victims, like we have been, and for my husband and myself
to continue our love in this new awareness.
The actions I have taken and I am taking to help others have been in: 1-Talking to people: with my husband, our children, their friends, people we know,
and with the pastoral sections in the schools of our children, about the dangers of the contraceptive mentality, which underlies the sexual revolution.
2- I am very interested in uncovering the link between contraceptive mentality and abortion. 3- I help in prolife groups.
Submitted by CS.
